My dArK WoRdZ

Rain Over Me

2012-01-08T13:39:00.002+07:00

Mawnya nulis di disini lagi bertujuan nulis yang oke" malah jadinya jadi tempat nulis buat seorang yang sangat mengesalkan... banyak mawnya... ini itu dan segala macam dan yang terpenting adalah tingkat kebocahannya TINGKAT DEWA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maw mencoba sabar sampai kapanpun tetap saja sesekali meledak juga... diberitahu berulang-ulang kali tetap saja kepala batu! bisanya mengeluh mengeluh hanya itu yang dilakukan tiap hari.. bisanya cuma mencemooh tapi gx sadar diri.. berkali kali dibilang suru ngaca malahan narsis dipikirnya kaca itu hanya untuk mempercantik fisik saja... gx sadar kalau ternyata ada fungsi lain yaitu mempercantik HATI!!!!! wah wah.... suka sukamu wes... kita liat aja beberapa hari kedepan ini... BOCAH!!!

-=[ just a thing ]=-

2009-10-30T01:04:00.000+07:00

-never thought bout this kind of words-

it's all bout me or bout her story...

2009-10-30T00:45:00.000+07:00

my heart frustated... got nothing to do... nothing to bare.. feel lonely... on a great way... she makes me feel blurry... DAMN!!!! unfortunately... I love her much more than everybody does...
Can't get in line with her moves.... can't stay away from her leech love...
but unfortunately... I love her in that way...

she got me every single thing...
she feel me on the different way...
but unfortunately... there's something i can't say
bout HOW MUCH I HATE THE WAY SHE KEEP THE SH*T!!!

- Wanted -

2009-03-04T01:39:00.000+07:00

want to see...
want to hear...
want to bear...
want to seek...
want to fell...
want to grown...
want to touch...

but the most thing is... want to meet u A.S.A.P

- Bintang -

2008-12-04T22:31:00.000+07:00

Bintang...

Ciptaan Sang Khalik yang bersinar sendiri tanpa ada pantulan cahaya benda langit lain, bintang dengan segala cara menyampaikan cahayanya tuk menghiasi malam yang kelam pada seluruh penghuni alam semesta. Tak perlu gundah ketika tak dapat melihatnya diangkasa, itu hanya ketidak mampuan seseorang tuk melihatnya lebih detail karna bintang itu selalu ada disana tanpa pernah beranjak dari tempatnya.

Apa yang terpikirkan olehmu ketika dirimu menyadari bahwa jarak bintang dari bumi begitu jauh akan tetapi ia tetap dapat menyinari bumi ini dengan sinarnya.. apa yang perlu ditelaah ketika cahaya itu menyentuh retina mata dan membiaskannya padamu. Ketika awan menutupi cahayanya tuk menuju daratan luas nan permai ini, tak diragukan masih ada secercah sinarannya yang membuai malammu ini.

Kubiarkan lelahku ini sirna bersama sinarnya dimalam yang dingin ini di kota yang sejuk ini pula. Bintangku tetap setia menemani setiap pengagumnya hingga fajar menjemputnya. Kini kuharap penantianku segera berakhir ketika kutemukan bintangku sendiri yang ada di dataran permai ini.

- Beautiful Mess -

2008-12-04T21:49:00.000+07:00

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
And shouted cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, Here we are
Here we are
We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

Through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds, out of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it.

- Thunder -

2008-11-26T00:08:00.000+07:00

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
Im holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation what Im feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer Do you know youre unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding roadtell me where to start and tell me something I dont know,Today Im on my ownI cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know

And now I'm itching for the tall grassAnd longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Yeah Im walking on a tightrope I'm wrapped up in vines
I think I'll make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning Let me feel you in my veins

I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Boys like Girls - Thunder

- Stop & Stare -

2008-11-25T23:36:00.000+07:00

This town is colder now I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move I'm shakin' off the rust

I've got my heart set On anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself Counting up the years

Steady hands just take the wheel
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal
For the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need, oh
Can you see what I see?

They're tryin to come back All my senses push
Untie the weight bags I never thought I could

Steady feet, don't fail me now I'm gonna run till you can't walk Something pulls my focus out And I'm standing down

Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scaredbut I've become what I can't be, oh Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not thereand you'd give anything to get what's fair But fair ain't what you really need, oh

You don't need

What you need

One Republic - Stop & Stare

- Guardian Angel -

2008-11-24T02:12:00.000+07:00

When I see your smile, Tears run down my face. I can't replace.
And now that I'm strong, I have figured out, How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul. And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's okay,

Seasons are changing,
And waves are crashing,
And stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter,
I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.
'Cause you're my, My true love, my whole heart. Please don't throw that away. 'Cause I'm here... for you! Please don't walk away and, Please tell me you'll stay!

Use me as you will!
Pull my strings just for a thrill! And I know I'll be okay,
Though my skies are turning grey!

I will never let you fall!
I'll stand up with you forever!
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven!

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Guardian Angel

Sudut mati

2008-11-23T03:31:00.000+07:00

disudut mati dari atapku..
kuarahkan pandanganku sejenak tuk berpikir
tak kutemukan suatu alasan tuk menetap.
akan tapi kutemukan jiwaku yang menyendiri
disudut mati itu.

kugapai mimpiku dari sudut mati itu,
kujamah anganku pada tembok yang rapuh
kubiarkan bayanganku membias tuk menghilang
kulupakan duniaku tuk bertemu dengan mimpiku yang sirna

disudut mati itu segalanya menjadi jelas.. jelas padaku bukan padamu bukan pula pada mereka..
hanya aku sendiri yang egois ini tanpa terkecuali.
kini hanya ada aku dan kursi tua ini yang menopang pikiran kecilku untuk berpikir

daRken houZ

2008-11-23T03:04:00.000+07:00

walking by...
there's only a silent picture which stare at me...
watch me walking alone in this darkness hall...
they laugh at me... (LOL)

I can't stop walking. there's too spooky,
still not b'coz the scary thing but the most silly thing in this world... being alone where there are many thing I can pick for my companion...

hope this thing end soon.. but unfortunately...
I don't have any flashlight to show me the way.

which one I must done first.. either keep going by myself or just stop by n waiting for help from somebody i dont know who...

Passing by

2008-11-23T01:47:00.000+07:00

never thought that I'll be walking alone in this scary street... not for the silly ghost but silent journey...
alone in darkness still don't ever wanna be there for a third time..

are U there...
pliss.. stay by my side
pliss.. be here for a long time till.. the end of time...
so there no one can intercede us

if U not there.. then let me complete my journey
by letting u behind.. so there no one feel sorry for this

when I complete all by my self.. I'll tell the world that i have complete my task with... or without u beside me

sitting by...

2008-11-23T01:37:00.000+07:00

Still dunno what 2 do
soo see this... as my words.. many words..

there's only stars... light n moon who stands by my side.. to watch me sitting by their side

can think clearly by now

WheRE Are tHou

2008-11-13T23:11:00.001+07:00

pliss send my message

sTartiNg Line-uP

2008-11-13T21:58:00.000+07:00

HAte to TeLL thIS but, As oTHer WishES... I TeLl tHem WhAt tHey uSeD to KnOw WhIch oNe arE better not to beiNg DoNE

WiTh All of thIs StArting liNE up i beGAn DarkEn my DAyS...

StartinG my "DayS" with :

1. SmiLy fAcE

2. S.CouraGE

3. Selfishness

4. Struggle

5. SillY tHinGS

6. StoP & StarE

7. SavIng

8. SimPLe thinGs

9. Say "Hi" tO mySelF

10. StArT WalkIng ArouND

lAst buT nOT LeAst SaY some Lil pRAy To 4JJl For my FAmZ..

eSpeCiAlly for my BElovEd moM n DaD

WheN thiNGs bE UndoNe

2008-11-12T17:29:00.000+07:00

huFf... i realize this is such a wasting time be here..

sit, stare, think n not being doe by..

the place i used to be alone..

no one there.. it just me.. myself n I

but i can move from this scary place even for a while coz there i must complete my task..

even dunno what task is it.

Unknown

2008-10-29T01:12:00.000+07:00

Start with this...
end with this...
begin with this...
stop with this...

then after that?
what happen next with that?
who in charge all that thing?
are thou who doing that?

----

what do you think??
im a silly person right??
dunno what to do..
dunno wanna do..
n the most terrible thing was i being fooled..

u know what..
there many things I can do with this..
there are many words u dunno bout this...
still there are a lot of meaning buried inside..
n i never stop to give all i had..

so just stop by here...
stare the falling star again, without run for it
lose the chance...
b'coz of this foolish thing
for 2 years...

-- I go no where --

Dun-nO

2008-10-28T00:46:00.000+07:00

Berhenti berpikir tuk sekejap waktu...
Sekejap itulah waktuku terbuang tuk berpikir...
se-Penting itukah?

mulai dari 0... tak ada yang dapat kukatakan lagi...
wanna be alone...
still think bout everything yang useless...
wanna walk but...
to many wall to break down..
soo I just stop and stare the think I must do...

confusing...

ThiNkinG

2008-07-07T21:28:00.000+07:00

- SmotHer Me -

Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time Surely you can take some comfort knowing that you're mine Just hold me tight, lay by my side Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time

I found my place in the world Could stare at your face for the rest of my days Now I can breathe, turn my insides out and Smother me Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves you all alone I hold my breath and lose the feeling that I'm on my own Hold me too tight, stay by my side And let me be the one who calls you baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?
Smother me (Smother me)

When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
And how my mistakes have made
your heart break
Still I need you here with me
So baby I, baby I'm here

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?
Smother me (Smother me)

"Let me be the one who calls you baby
The one who calls you baby"

FuR : U

2008-06-16T13:45:00.000+07:00

dekapan mulut ku terkatup

ketika teruai lurus indahnya bisikan hawa
alamku memulai semuanya ketika alammu memanggilku
aku tak dapat melangkahkan kakiku menuju indah orange-mu

akankah dirimu mendekatiku
dan memeluk erat genggaman tanganku didalammu
aku kan menarik indahnya bintang dan memanggil
memanggil peri cinta untuk segera menjagamu dalam kelamnya malam ini

indah siang ini kutemukan
kutemukan sepeluh titik kuning padamu...
mau kah kau menemaniku untuk sesaat ketika semuanya harus berakhir?
ku telah jatuh didepanmu untuk melihatmu lebih indah

lurus indah merona
pindah tanganmu menuju arah angin yang lembut
hilangkan semua derita ketika alam siang memulai semua dengan senyuman
senyuman siang yang akan diunggu dewi malam..

air...
air..
hanya air ini yang dapat memulai semuanya dan mengakhirinya dengan senyuman..
aku akan menunggunya ketika, ketika air ini menuju hilir.

Air Malamku

2008-06-16T01:00:00.000+07:00

kElak kEtikA kUTAhu bAHwA IndahNya SuarA Bumi KAn kuGApAI DeNGan DentiNgAn PiAno GELApku nAn SunYi nAn SenDu yAng BerArti TlAh MEnGHilAnG DiTelAn USiA SenJA

KuTAhU RuMPUt hIjAu TELAh mEnGuNiNG KArEnA MuSiM YAng PAnAs AKAN tEtApi bIArlAh SungAi MEnGAlIr KE HiLIR KEtiKA SemuAnYA TELAh uSAi

KerAguAn ADam AkAn KEhiDuPAn DuNiA DiJAwAb DenGAn DAmAi OLEh CiNTA Siti HAwa.. KeADaan YAng PanAS TEntAng MaRS Di BAwa indAh OlEh VEnUS

MAuKAH BiTAng TErANgku BErtUkAr TempAt
DengAN BuLAn BuLAt PEnUH KEtiKA hAru?
AKankAh SemuA TErCiPtA ketiKA SemuA ITu BErAkhIR??
akAn KuJAwab SemUA SetElAh miMpiku SirnA

muLAilAH BErnYAnyi.. AkAN kUDenGAr SenANDUng MAlAmmu AkAn KupUJA SelAyAknYA DeWi
AkAn kuKenANg SelALu SePerTi ibukU...
Aku merinDUkAnnYA SepErti DiRimu YAng MAyA....

- tak kan kutarik apa yang telah kuambil -

Penipu

2008-06-10T14:33:00.000+07:00

Aq terhenyak melihat sang terang
meng-abu disaat diliput kelam
keadaan dimana manusia menunduk
dan mengampun pada yang kuasa

dikala senjaku...
kuratapi indahnya dewi malam yang murung
situasi suram yang gelap gulita
tanpa cahaya bintang satupun dalamnya

kurasakan panas... kala hujan
kurasa sepi dalam keramaian..
kugapai mimpi kala terbangun
kusimpan angan ketika terantuk.

Alamku menangis ketika bumi
berputar terbalik menuju masa yang lampau yang silau..
dan bintang terang hanya terdiam menyinari..
menyinari alam yang salah.. alam yang gundah.

kulepas sepasang merpati menuju hijau raya
tuk menjaga dan menemanimu
cerialah... karena rasaku tak pernah menipu

StiLL siLLy

2008-06-10T13:31:00.000+07:00

dekapan darah berbinar ketika suara burung berkicau sendu
arah terang datang perlahan menuai apa yang kutuai
melepaskan batin sunyiku dan menghanyutkan raga sepi ini bersama bintang
masih bodoh untuk berdiri akan tetapi berlari menuju keindahan

apa yang akan kau dapat disana ketika kau tahu...
tahu akan kebodohanmu melarikan dirimu dari kelam yang sunyi
keindahan kelam menyesatkan mata nurani
merusak hasrat diri manusia fana...

tak dapat dijaga
tak mampu bertahan
tak sanggup menunggu
dan masih tak kuat untuk bertarung

apa yang akan dilakukan?
apa yang kulakukan?
apa yang akan dia lakukan?
apa yang akan terjadi kemuadian adalah sebabnya...

Rusak... rusaklah semua yang telah ditanam sayang
terurai lurus seakan jatuh kebumi dengan lesatnya
desingan rasa yang menjadi rancu ketika terlihat dengan mata maya
tapi apakah semua itu dapat terulang?

jawablah dengan apa yang kau miliki
jawablah dengan apapun yang rasakan
lakukanlah dengan pengalamanmu
akan tetapi berlarilah ketika rasamu menjadi pengecut.

Nu Family

2008-06-06T02:23:00.000+07:00

dinda (pojok kiri atas)
adek ini bener" gx taw malu.. apa ajah diomongin ampe wktu kmrn liat" barang si doi dengan ademnya bilang "mahhal" di sebuah toko di TP wakakak nice job lil sista.. wakakaka... malah kemaren arto n kita semua di buat kebingungan dengan pertanyaannya yang aneh bin ajaib tentang "..." wakakkaka... tapi baguslah karena dengan keluguannya itu
all gone crazy..

ditha (pojok kiri bawah)
waduh ini gx taw dewh gara" sapa jadi si kecil niyh takut ma gw.. tp adek yg kecil ini lutju karena beda bgt ma ditha yang ceplas ceplos bout everything yang ini.. more calm n shy.. humnnn...

Fathur (cowo yang paling kecil deh)
yang ini kerjaanya loncat" karena itu kakaknya menyebutnya manusia per.. wahahaha... si adek kecil ini hyper banget dawh..

Dini (yang pojok kanan)
huff yang gw inget cm atu... awas loe macem" ma adek gw... (T.T) waakakakakka huh payah jadinya gx bisa PDKT dewh dawh githu gx sukses lagi. ckckckc. nasib" wahahahah... dini niyh pendiam tapi... tapi dangerous girl.. karena suaranya dapat membahana diseantero rumah... ckckckc... sereeeeeemmm euyh... wahahaha...

last but not least Arto n Atid
dawh yang ini gx usah dibicarakan karena terlalu panjang... pokoknya githu dewh... karena terlalu spesial.. jadi terlalu banya pendeskripsiannya.. wahahahaha...

Thx God... sekarang dhyt punya keluarga baru.. hwahahahaha... all of this (ya walau gx lengkap personilnya...) ini adek" baru.. finally gw punya adek wakakakka... thx fren... couse of U now i have my other fam'z in malang... heuheuheu... feel glad..

SicKneZ

2008-06-05T03:22:00.000+07:00

So sick...
so sick bout everything..
dunNo bout thiZ n thAt JuZ hatE..
hAte "U" muCh

"WaNna mAkE iT fAst n eAsy"

"wanna write down..
wanna say it..
but...
there only 1 hope fur anything..
hope I can do this better than ever.."

Mimpi

2008-05-26T21:12:00.000+07:00

Mimpi lagi...
ini hanya mimpi....
terlalu lama terbuai dengan terang sehingga lupa akan gelap
masi teringat di benaknya bahwa hitam itu kelam
dan mentari begitu menyilaukan...
kasat mata dunia ketika melihat bintang terang selayaknya kejora

hanya saja mimpi ini akan menjadi nyata ketika...
ketika malam menjadi terik dan senja menjadi malam...
akan tetapi.. dapatkah.. ini menjadi katrol untuk hidupnya??
hanya kelam lawh yang menjawabnya nanti.. nanti...
nanti ketika malam tiba...